"Jangan beritahu bagaimana seharusnya hidup itu pada orang lain, tapi buatlah orang lain itu lebih hidup.” – crimethinc

2012 Resolution (the very common title, one in a million I guess)

When I make myself write this title, suddenly I remember the beginning part of Bridget Jones Diary (actually I just read that part, because I've ever watch the two movies of it, and didn't think it worth enough to go on).

I've never write such a thing like this before! And i will not write the "i will not" part. (As The Law of Attraction said, our unconscious mind cannot understand the negative sentence. How come? But of course it will not hurt to just believe at this time.) So this is it.

I (the one who is very weak and undisciplined at this moment, but soon will be strong and consistent) Will:
  • Live a healthy life, sleep four to six hour a day, from 11 to 2 or 4. No more sleep only 2 hours a day, since my bachelor final project has been over.
  • Drink and eat well, follow Rasulullah SAW's example.
  • Sholat right after the adzan, and ascertain my self to get wudlu before the adzan. As Susan said, the most beloved deed is get your self wudlu before the adzan.
  • Read the whole words in the Holy Qur'an every month, even if I can only read the translations.
  • Commit to memory the Qur'an.
  • Learn 2 other languages this year.
  • Train my self to be more talkative, easygoing, and playful. Hohoh. If the dragon can be trained, so do I.
  • Launch the Norina before my 22nd birthday, which means, I afraid, I wouldn't be able to go to Gunung Salak. Sorry Nisul.
  • Re-selecting my books.
  • Do my task with all my attention, effort, and heart. Not compromise with quality (it is a quote, not my intention to use the negative sentence).
  • Consider everything in this resolution as His gift.
  • And live happily.

This resolution will be complete with a pray: "Bismillahi tawakaltu 'alallahi laa haula wa laa quwwata illa billah. Amin."


Bertanya Tidak Membuatmu Mati, adalah salah satu judul halaman blog seorang teman. Sebuah kalimat utuh sebenarnya, yang cukup menggelitik. #catatanmimpisaya

Karena memang bertanya saja tidak membuatmu mati, kecuali bila bertanya pada seorang raja bodoh yang temperamen mengapa ia begitu jelek. Tapi bertanya (baik bertanya-tanya dalam pikiran, bertanya pada siapapun yang dapat ditanyai, maupun bertanya, tentunya, kepada Tuhan) adalah hak kita. Bertanya adalah wujud kebebasan berpikir yang diizinkan untuk kita miliki.

Ketika bertanya-tanya mengenai kepemilikan hak untuk bertanya ini, di dalam otak saya yang sederhana ini sudah membludak berjuta-juta pertanyaan. Seperti: Apakah perpustakaan norwegia berupa gua-gua raksasa, yang menyimpan semua buku, majalah, koran, hingga rekaman televisi dan radio, yang berada di bawah gletsyer itu benar-benar ada? Apakah rumah laba-laba adalah rumah yang paling lemah? Apakah naskah-naskah kuno dunia ilmu pengetauan di zaman keemasan islam yang sempat dirampas dalam perang salib dan kabarnya juga ikut dibakar oleh gereja karena dianggap bid'ah itu masih bersisa? Apakah hidup harusnya sederhana saja? Mengapa (wallahu 'alam) diciptakan hawa nafsu dan kebebasan memilih? Bahasa apa saja yang paling diprioritaskan untuk dipelajari saat ini? Bagaimana cara membuat peta di zaman Christopher Columbus? Siapa orang yang menemukan jarum? Mengapa bangsa Indonesia memakan nasi dan sejak kapan? Mengapa arsitektur, dalam kategorisasi ilmu pengetahuan, digolongkan sebagai seni dan bukan teknik (seperti di perguruan tinggi saya)? Dan berjuta pertanyaan lainnya, baik yang mendesak untuk dijawab maupun yang tidak.

Sebuah buku, (akan lebih baik dibaca dalam versi aslinya jika memungkinkan) berjudul "Bibbi Bokkens Magiske Bibliothek" atau "Perpustakaan Ajaib Bibbi Bokken", dalam terjemahannya memuat puisi mengenai ketanyaan. Puisi ini akan dengan mudah ditemukan dengan meng-google "ketanyaan". Sungguh, setelah saya mencari dalam Kamus Besar Bahasa Indonesia pun, belum ada di sana arti dari "ketanyaan". Timbulah pertanyaan-pertanyaan lagi: Apa itu ketanyaan? Apakah ia adalah kata baru yang timbul dari pertumbuhan bahasa? (karena sebagaimana kita tahu bahasa memang tumbuh dan berkembang) Apakah penerjemah buku kecil ini tahu arti ketanyaan? Mungkin sebagian orang yang bekerja di penerbit Mizan tahu, apa yang dimaksud dengan ketanyaan? Akan saya tanyakan.


Buang-Buang Waktu

Sungguh hanya buang-buang waktu saja, ketika kamu menyerah dalam meraih mimpimu, melakukan hal lain, lalu tersadar kamu tidak pernah bisa terlepas dari mimpi itu dan mencoba meraihnya kembali. Bukan saat meraihnya kembali, tapi saat kamu menyerah dan melakukan hal lain itulah kamu membuang waktumu.

Sungguh beruntung mereka yang bisa segera menyadari apa mimpinya, dan fokus pada mimpi itu. Banyak kisah tentang mereka yang membuat iri. Dengan begitu bukankah mereka tidak membuang-buang waktu?

Sungguh hanya buang-buang waktu, ketika kita telah menetapkan apa yang kita impikan dalam hidup ini, namun melakukan banyak kegiatan yang tidak relevan. Aku ingin jadi desainer, misalnya, tapi yang kulakukan adalah memasak pastry, main softball, nonton drama sepanjang malam, belajar merajut, dan sama sekali tidak menyentuh desain. Aku ingin menjadi pengusaha, misal, tapi yang kubaca buku-buku novel roman sejarah dan novel fantasi, dan yang kulakukan hanya belanja. Aku ingin keliling dunia, misalnya, tapi yang kulakukan lagi-lagi mendaftar kursus ini itu sepanjang tahun di kota kelahiran. Sungguh, hanya buang-buang waktu.

Memang itu hanya permisalan, impianku jauh berbeda dengan itu, meski orang banyak menyangka aku ingin menjadi pengusaha. Akankah aku juga termasuk orang yang membuang-buang waktu dengan melakukan kegiatan yang tidak relevan?


Books and Words and Human

You should know that my bachelor final project has finally over. And it leads me to the falling of my life flow. It goes down... down… below the deepest ocean. Suddenly i don't get any tension to do anything! I felt a strange feeling like I lost my left pair of my new socks and leave it only the right pair of it. Maybe not so similar but I lost my equilibrium. Until I force myself on reading again.

Reading is a really different activity compared with watching movies, plays, dramas, news, gossips, reality shows, simply anything on TV, or anything. Though either reading or watching gives you any inception of a matter. By reading some sort of words plays, somehow, you think. And imagine. And think it deeper. And it gives you and urge need to discuss it. And think it more.

Someone in a book ever told me that words are the most meaningful thing in the world. In addition, as I ever mention in my previous post, the famous J.K. Rowling also gives us an indirect message that word is a very… very… powerful weapon in the world. For the use of words in every magic spell. And can you notice that the most beautiful form of His love to the human being comes in words that unite in an unbreakable book?

Then because words are the most powerful weapon, it is important to see who’s the one who use the weapon, as in this case, the author. Why in this world, there are people who write such horror, thriller, dark book to be read by us? Er, maybe that last sentence sound too naïve to see, but really, why? That’s my first coming question. A friend told me that those books give some kind of pleasure to people. It is fun to read. Hah, are you crazy? Now I remember that my best friend is a consumer of a most dark thriller book, and more than a half of Wikipedia Best Author List is a thriller, horror, and mystery books author. Maybe it is fun to run the adrenalin faster, but the murderer in real life is a nightmare that no one in healthy mind and soul would want to bear. Maybe those kinds of books come because the world goes crazy. Mine another naïve sentence, forgive me.

Words are really the most powerful weapon. See how some book can leads to World War and kill million people in a short time. I am standing with everyone who believes that the war we know as world war is a game play. A game play that I could not understand yet, but makes me frightened enough. But as I recall my memory about the works of the Turkish writer, Harun Yahya, I remember that several books and thoughts mentioned become the basis of the war. You should read those works of him, because I can’t remember the actual idea about this ‘book and war’ matter. But as far as I remember what I concluded from his works that: books can leads to deliver a war.

Recently we could see and hear any news about war, murder, and terror in our country. The last that happened in South Sumatra, this 2011, in a village that I don’t want to mention, eight hour from my friend house, is a nightmare of the hell. You should know what village that I meant because the media ever mention about it. And it makes me think, how come a human being become so mean, evil, and crazy in this 2011 after the reformation and the 66th national independent celebration? Though I never thought that we already independent. And after hear about this village, I flash back to the question, why still there are talented author that write about those evil matter and spread those craziness? How to heal the world (as what The King of Pop said) then?

Where is the love? (Black Eye Peas) We were born into this evil world, where man is killing man. And no one knows just why. (White Lion) Hoh, you know, back to the famous J.K. Rowling, we already know the answer is love. Why the talented writer did not just write to spread the love, not such a cheesy thing as a historical romantic novel, but just like what mothers do. Love can come to many very different forms. It can be hurt or bliss or fun or tiring, but it can heal the world. Thank god I have a faith in You, and I know where to hold.